This is me the last 5 days. I've accomplished nothing really. I've hung out on my bed and watched the Gilmore Girls on DVD. (Yes, I've already seen them all. I'm watching them again.) I haven't neglected the kids. I've met their needs. I've just felt the need for huge amounts of alone time. I can't remember the last time I put on makeup. I've showered every couple of days, at least.
And, yes, I know this is probably depression. However, I'm not suicidal or homicidal, so I think I'll skip the meds for now. I think (hope) it's just situational with all the issues of spring break and that getting back into my wild and crazy daily routine will help shake me out of it. I need something to force me to get up and get ready each day.
I've got several things I've got to do this week:
~ Light a fire under the alcoholic carpenter and get him to finish the bathroom.
~ Light a fire under Alli and get her to rejoin the living, too.
~ Find money somewhere (probably another payday loan from my mom) and get the last things bought for the new bathroom (vanity, sink, woodwork, and toilet).
~ Get Alli and Elvis signed up for the preschool program.
~ Cancel the newspaper that is delivered every day but only read about once a month.
~ Pay the cable bill before they cut us off. (Everything else comes directly out of my checking account. I have so much trouble remembering to write a check for this one.)
~ Get on DCS and make them start finding another home for Cori. At this point, I'm willing to hang on until school is out (7 weeks) but really want her gone as summer starts.
~ Teach 19 five and six-year-olds how to read. (Actually about 13 of them are fine. It's the other 6 I worry about.)
Looks to be a busy week. Wish me luck. At this point, I'm just hoping to survive.
P.S. I did accomplish something today. I installed shades on my bedroom windows. I've had the shades for at least 7 years. They have been hanging out in my closet. I've just never taken the time to put them up. I did it today. After 7 years of waiting, it took me all of 20 minutes to install all 3. I wish more things in my life turned out this way!
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I'm in the same funk. I am hoping that spring will make it better--today I was motivated to do a little cleaning and sort out some stuff, but there is still a great deal to do. I'm pretty sure mine is a raging bout of depression (I washed my hair tonight for the first time since SATURDAY and took the first shower I'd had since Wednesday) and I'm probably going to have to go on meds, but I'm trying to shake it on my own. Had a lot of bloodwork done on Friday, so there may be some answers there. He thinks I'm probably anemic. I think I'm way off on b-12 to boot, which W. says is from malnutrition. Considering that my dinner tonight consisted of about 1 oz. of meatloaf (all that was left) and biscuit dough that I ate with a spoon, he's probably on to something.
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